First of all, I’ll start to use code names for my friends, since some of them hate to see their names written in my blog.. *bitches. Kiddin’, love you all!*
The other thing is, that G is coming to Tallinn & Tartu on 30th!! YAY!! Of course I’m gonna see him on 19th, but I’m really looking forward to spend the New Year with him. And C. See, code names :P Which are easy to guess if you know me and my friends.
But my main topic today is dreams. I still have sleeping disorder/sleep deprivation going on, but I just remembered some good dreams that I want to share with you (or with myself, who the fuck ever reads my shitty blog/life :D) Aaaaanyways, first I must tell you about the dream that included K. One night he was here at my apartment, and being oh-so-K-like aka being a bit too much at times (I still like you honey, you brighten up my days usually!). We were discussing K’s proposal (he asked N to marry him) and then he just blurts out that he doesn’t want to marry me. Mostly I was WTFing, but small part of me was hurting, since I have had some sorta crush on him (..yeesh, Ima baka desu… -__-’) But I think this is the reason why I saw a dream where I hit K with a beer pint(/jug) :D And when I woke up in the morning, I was laughing a bit and, again, WTFing :D But it felt REALLY good to hit him :D
Second dream that I wanna mention is the one where I was on this little island with my family and my cousins’ family. For some odd reason, I was swimming with my clothes on (well, really not that weird if you know me well…) When I came out of the water, I was missig my yellow rubber boots and my yellow SKIS. Yeah, SKIS :D Not water skis, skis. The ones you use on winter :D I started to look for my boots first and found them near to the shore. The skis was a bit harder, since there were actually lot of skis in the lake :D So, I grabbed this mini-canoe (WTF-FTW?! :DDDDD), stepped inside and started to paddle. I went through three pairs of skis before I found my own (and at the same time I was trying to avoid our neighbor from next island, he was a very creepy and scary man..) After this I went back to my cousins to show them I found my skis. But this dream was SO random, so the moment I woke up… WTF?!?!?! :D And this one I saw when I was visiting L in Turku.
I wrote on FB about my Greece exchange student dream a bit. First of all, in the dream I was originally from USA. I was a boy and my name was Jesse, I had cute blonde hair and blue eyes and I was SMOKING hot! :D Anyways, my whole class seemed to hate or avoid me, dunno why (because I was gay.. Might be the case..) Even though they talked to me normally, their faces were always twisted in pain or hate or disgust.. When I then went as an exchange student to Greece, this one girl (who had a huge crush on me) decided to send me a gift to Greece. And this gift was maitotonkka (I have no friggin’ idea what that is in English, but I can put a picture.. or the link to the picture.. http://www.suomenantiikki.fi/images/vanha%20maitotonkka%203.jpg ) Again, RANDOM! And when I received it in my dream, I was also WTFing :D I’d love to know what the hell my subconscious is trying to tell me.. :D
Yeah. But from asia to akkuporakone, it was snowing today!! YAY!! I made lots of snowballs, one huge snowball and some snow angels with C ^__^ It felt good, like I was a kid again (well, I am, I love to play in snow ^____^) And I was so happy! SNOW! No more darkness! Christmas is almost here!!!! AND G!!! w00t! CAN’T WAIT!! But because of C, I’m awake right now. But I can’t complain, he’s just too sweetpie<3 (sleeping beside me like an angel :D Ima creepy… :D)
So…. If I see more random dreams, I’ll write about them :D And I most certainly think I will, if my awful sleep deprivation continues… Ooh boy :D
-Yamato
I also wanted to post this poem here. So,
for my sister, ’cause I just simply love you.
Elegia siskolle
Joskus toivoisin,
että voisin ojentaa sinulle käteni
aikana, jolloin sitä eniten tarvitset.
Olen aina kaukana,
pois sieltä, missä sinä
olet.
Makaat auringonvalossa
onnettomana,
vaikka tahtoisit huokaista helpotuksesta.
Hymyile! Tanssi!
Perhosenkeveät jalkasi
tuskin koskettavat lattia.
Sano hyvästi auringonvalolle,
jollei se tee sinusta
onnellista.
Anna minulle kätesi,
anna minulle huolesi,
jotta saisimme siipesikin taas keveiksi.
Ja kuka sanoi,
ettei sinusta ole
perhoseksi!
Sinä olet sinä,
kuolevaisuudestasi huolimatta,
sinä olet itse keveys,
Hento henkäys metsässä,
keltainen perhonen
korkean koivun lehdellä.
Näetkö? Näetkö nyt
maailman samoin
kuin minä?