Lauantain puolella aamuyöstä tapahtu myös traagisia asioita, ei kylläkään minulle. Ja tämä myös masensi hieman. Mutta siitä on päästy ohi.
Kumminki, mun unelmat särky joteki tässä viikonloppuna. Poissa oli 11+, Tom Felton, kaikki. En pystyny kuvittelemaan ketään tai mitään rinnalleni. Ja jos mä en pysty unelmoimaan mistään, mun elämällä ei oo mitään tarkotusta ja voin yhtä hyvin vaan olla ja tuijottaa seinää. Ehkä jotkut ei ymmärrä sitä, mutta mun tärkein harrastus elämässä on unelmointi. Ilman sitä mä en oo mitään, ilman sitä mä olisin tylsä ihminen, ilman sitä en varmaan ees kirjottais tänne! Joten, kun sitten viikonloppuna oli tämä shokeeraava tapahtuma, se oli ku isku vyön alle. Mua ahdisti, mä panikoin, tahdoin vaan itkeä, mutten pystyny. Koko päivän yritin vaan ajatella jottain positiivista, mutten pystynyt. Onneksi koko jutun pelasti sitten High School Musical 2, jossa oli kivaa musaa ja jätte hyvännäkösii poikia! ^-^ Ja nyt pystyn taas kuvittelemaan rakkaan Tomin rinnalleni ^___^*joku päivä te löydätte mut mielisairaalasta, koska mä rakastan omia rakkaita mielikuvitushahmoja enemmän kuin oikeita ihmisiä*
Joo..ToK:ia ois nyt 3 tuntia…Perkele!!
Yamato-chan
*couple of songs that helped me through this shit*
Don’t know why I’m still afraid
If you weren’t real I would make you up
now
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
And deep
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives.
Remember when we first met
And everything was still a bet
In love’s game
You would call; I’d call you back
And then I’d leave
A message
On your answering machine
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom,
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom, freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We’re made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
Without
A fight
I think that you came too soon
You’re the honey and the moon
That lights
Up my night
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish that I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
Freedom
Run away tonight
Freedom freedom
Run away
Run away tonight
We got too much time to kill
Like pigeons on my windowsill
We hang around
Ever since I’ve been with you
You hold me up
All the time I’ve falling down
But right now
Everything is turning blue,
And right now
The sun is trying to kill the moon,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Of freedom
Where no one lives
~Honey&The Moon by Joseph Arthur~
Honey&The Moon
I was stained, with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right I just didn’t know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight
Never cared never wanted
Never sought to see what flaunted
So on purpose so in my face Couldn’t see beyond my own place
And it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
But you taught me I could change Whatever came within these shallow days
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen
As the sun shines through it pushes away and pushes ahead
It fills the warmth of blue and leaves a chill instead and
I didn’t know that I could be so blind to all that is so real
But as illusion dies I see there is so much to be revealed
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight
I was stained, by a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right
I just didn’t know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and
I will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight…
~Twilight by Vanessa Carlton~
Twilight
Someone is really unhappy
Put myself on the knife
It seems I never got through to you
So Ill wean myself off slowly
Im a darkened soul
My streets all pop music and coke
All our lives on tv
Just switch off and try to sleep
People get so lonely
I believe, I believe, I believe
Everythings out to see
I believe, I believe, I believe
I believe its the way it should be
I hope you feel the same
Everyone is dying
Stop crying now here comes the sun
I didnt mean to hurt you, oh no no
It takes time to see what youve done
So Ill wean myself off slowly
I believe, I believe, I believe
Love is the only one
I deceive, I deceive, I deceive
I deceive cos Im not that strong
I hope you feel the same
And now, now
It seems that
Its falling apart
But I hope I see the good in you
Come back again
I just believed in you
~Sweet Song by Blur~
Sweet Song (the music is the most important, but hey! It has GOrillaz!!<3)
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then
As long as you’ll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite
~Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down~
Kryptonite